Unsure

The thought on my mind lately has been the future. Near future, far future, really everything. When I started high school I was sure about everything you could imagine, from what color the cloths on the tables for my wedding to how I was going to parent my children. Right now I am a junior and I'm not even sure if I want kids or if I even want table cloths in my wedding. I am debating on whether I want to go straight into college after high school or wait a year and work. I mean all I want as a stressed out teenager is to move out and get an apartment with my best friend. It's crazy. I constantly amaze myself at how I can change my mind in an instant. I know I need to just live and let things go but sometimes I cant. With tons of homework and not tht many friends here in my new city, I swear I'm becoming like those kids I used to make fun of just a year ago. Going to the library and doing homework and not really talking to anyone. Ahh, my mind is overflowing with wide ranges of thoughts and emotions.

Day 12: To Someone You Hate Most

I don't really hate anyone but I have been hurt before. I don't have anyone to write to. I may tell people I hate them because I am angry that moment, doesn't mean I am. So this is my letter for today. Trying to get back in track and not get behind in posting my letters.

Day 11: To A Deceased Persone You Eish You Could Meet

Dear Mamaw and Papaw,
Even though technically I have met you before, I want to meet you again where I can remember fully and talk to you guys. I have heard so much about you guys and to me, y'all are amazing. I really do wish you were here to see me, though you are looking down on me from above. I love you guys. See you one day!
XOXOXO

Love,
Nikki

Day 10: To Someone You Don't Talk To As Much As You Would Like To

Dear Mimi,
Even though I wanted to live with mom doesn't mean I don't love you. Even though there will be miles between us, I still want you in my life. Maybe you can't finally be a grandparent to Nate and I instead of a parental figure. I love you and miss you!
XOXOXO

Love,
Nikki

Day 9: To Someone You Wish You Could Meet

Dear Eminem,
I love your music. You have been through some pretty rough times and I love how you haven't gotten dragged into the typical rap subjects like other artists. You write about your true feelings and experiences even if they can be a little violent. I hope everything goes right in the future and you never stop making albums!

-Nikki

Day 8: To Your Favorite Internet Friend

Dear Sean,
Oh my, I miss you so much. We have known eachother for a couple of years and we went from friends to like dating to being to best friends. I can tell to anything and even though we have drifted apart, just know that no matter what, I will always love you and you can always come to me for anything. I honestly hope your doing good. I miss Skyping and texting you till all hours of the night and even falling asleep. I miss you and I love you! Hope to talk to you soon.
XOXOXOXO

Love,
Nikki

Day 7: To Your Ex-Crush/Boyfriend

Dear Ziha,
Unfortunately I wasted a couple paragraphs on you in my life story, and I turned the page a long time ago. Hopefully someone will teach you a lesson on only talking to one girl! Have a nice life.

-Nikki